Wed, Jan. 4th, 2017

flatvurm: (crazy elf)
It was good that I had the day off from work today, because therapy this morning turned a little bit intense, so it was nice to not have to get out of that and switch context back into work mode for the day. On the downside, I was actually going to get some work done today, but I totally didn't. I don't feel that guilty about it, though. It was just extra stuff, and I feel better for having taken some chill time. Instead, I did some cooking (made a big pot of beans and greens, per New Year tradition) and some more online catchup. Also I'm learning that there's a difference between online catchup and me just wasting time dicking around on social media. Like...I wasted so much time today just paying attention to Twitter or Facebook or some other endless firehose of nonsense that I don't really need to be staying glued to. Unproductive. Also...owing mostly, I think, to my sleep dep yesterday, I was pretty punchy all day today. I actually nodded off in my chair in the middle of the afternoon, and let me tell you, I felt like quite the old man at that. But, yeah, basically just cooking a bunch of beans and dicking around online, I think that was about the whole of my post-therapy day. Gotta put food away, do dishes, and get to bed. Not looking forward to work tomorrow. Or ever.

Quick note that I basically shaved my head today. I had tried to trim my beard and my hair before my meetup with the family yesterday, but I had a sneaking suspicion that I botched the haircut part, so I just wore a bandanna and went about my day. Confirmed with Tabitha later that night that I had butchered my hair, so this morning I just buzzcut the whole situation. I'm now in that weird position where my facial hair is longer than my head hair. I mean...I know that's a thing now, but I was never into that look, at least when I see it on others. So...good thing I don't see people out in the world anymore, else I'd be worried that I was going to be pretty self-conscious for a while. ;)

So...good things from today. I got two packages. One was my backer copy of the first volume of collected Agents of the Realm comics. I like the webcomic; it's a magical girls story with a diverse cast of college girls. Good humor and good drama. The other was holiday gifts from my sister for me and Tb and Gb. I'm leaving it unopened until we can all get together -- hopefully tomorrow. Also, since I had the time tonight, I sat in on the live stream of the recording of the Misdirected Mark podcast. They stream the recording weekly on their Twitch channel. I try to stop by when I have the time; it's fun to watch them and also hang out with the #Chatroom4Life, which is what they call the chatroom crowd. Got to meet Jim McClure's partner Emily Reinhart tonight, which was pretty fun, so now I feel fine following her on Twitter. ;) Caught up with Senda a bit. Actually most of the regulars I get to see more or less daily on the Slack team, but it's still special to catch the podcast live show. MM is definitely one of the longer podcasts I try to keep up with on the reg, so somehow it makes it easier if I can set aside the time to watch the live show as opposed to setting aside time to listen to the recorded version plus Aftershow. I'm not sure why it works out that way, but it does.

In other news, I'm trying to rouse interest in Habitica among people again. It's been a good year using the service, and I saw on Twitter that Kevin Bates fired up his Habitica account and was looking for a party, so that reminded me to check in on Stephan. Then I put out a general call on Twitter and FB, and Dorian might be interested. I dunno...I'm sure it's not for everybody, but I found it pretty useful, so I'm sticking with it and seeing if other people might like it.

Oh! Possible board game night this weekend. Basically gotta see if I can muster the will to leave not only my house, but the Rock, and also make it all the way to Brooklyn. Fucking Greenpoint. All these new gentrified hipster neighborhoods are a pain in the ass with the trains, basically because they're still working off the same infrastructure they had back when people nobody gave a shit about still lived there. Which just goes to show my own bias, because I didn't give a shit about the infrastructure in Greenpoint until I had friends living there and hosting board game nights. So, whatever. I won't complain.

Guess that's about it. I think in the olden days I would have had a lot more to blather about on LJ; I've certainly had a lot of thoughts running around my head today. But I guess it's not really for public consumption at this point, and anyway, I'm too burnt tonight. Gonna try and finish my chores and go to bed. Really not enthused about tomorrow. Like...I'm glad 2016 is dead and gone with all its Dumpster fire glory. Some people are using 2017 as a signpost that it's okay to hope again. Some people are taking 2017 to mean buckling down and gearing up for the fight of their lives. I'm sliding from the first camp to the second camp. Certainly on the global scale. On the personal scale, I'm not exactly gearing up for a fight in 2017, but I am sliding away from the hope end of the scale. I think changes are necessary, perhaps even imminent, but change is always scary. It's also always risky, and I can't afford to indulge in the same risk tolerance I did when I was younger and less attached. Nowadays...I basically have a family to think about. So I'm treading more carefully these days...more slowly, more safely. My task for myself is to remember that treading slowly does not mean standing still. Tread slowly, but keep treading.

Anyway. Right now, gonna tread to chores and eventually sleep. So it goes.

EDIT: But wait, there's more. I've accumulated some unreasonable podcast debt from the last, say, three weeks, so I've been trying to address some of that recently, too. I think I mentioned HMOTD yesterday or the day before. Today I got current with One Shot. I won't realistically be able to dig out of this hole, though, I don't think, so I'll have to be making some hard choices soon about what to skip and so forth. I wish I was one of those people who can listen to podcasts and also do other stuff, but...that's just not meant to be. The only thing I can combine with podcast listening is exercise or chores. Which is nice when I have to be motivated to get exercise or do chores. Not so nice when I have a shitload of podcasts to catch up on and no time to do it in. ;)

First day back

Wed, Jan. 4th, 2017 23:40
flatvurm: (worry)
First day back at work after the New Year holiday weekend, and it was a doozy. This is the first of what will probably be many, many short posts that basically consist of "Went to work today. Tired."

So...went to work today. Tired.

Actually, I put in a lot of hours today. To paraphrase one of my teammates, it was too much of a day for having just come back from the holidays. The rest of the week is probably going to be mostly taken up by end-of-sprint meetings, which aren't particularly tiring, I guess, but do take up a lot of time. I think overall things are going well. I'm in a new position these days which is a lot of work and stresses me out (probably more than it should, but that's how I am with new things). I have a great team, though, which helps, and I think we've been doing well. Trying to hold on to that optimism and/or satisfaction and stave off the doom-like feelings of failure which are dogging my steps. Just need more sleep, I think.

I mostly work from home these days, so part of my 2017 refit is that I'm trying to make it a point to leave the house daily and at least go for a walk or something, if not try for some more rigorous exercise. Today I at least got a decent walk in. Caught the latest podcast episode of Pat Trek, which I greatly enjoy. Did some online catchup, but not really enough. It's just way too easy to fall behind. I'm spinning up a little bit of volunteer work for a non-profit, so I spent a bit of time on that today, as well. Also a nice little Habitica party is forming, so that might be nice to have a little company in the getting-my-shit-together game. It's the post-New Year boost, so we'll see what lasts.

Things I didn't get to today: Storium, Primordia, inbox zero, any RSS. I think I didn't go overboard on social media, so I feel okay about that. I'm doing well on the eschewing TV front. Still not enough time for podcasts or reading. I dunno, man. There's just so few hours in the day, particularly when you're trying to sleep like a human should and when work takes up extra time. Something I'm (still) not good at is adjusting to schedule changes on the fly. Disruptions really take it out of me for the day. In any case, not a bad day, really, just not a great one. Too much day job, not enough other stuff, and skimped on sleep.

Oh, I should mention, since I'm doing this for journalling purposes, I woke up pretty nauseated this morning. Would have skipped work if there wasn't important shit to do today, but I was fine a couple hours in, so...all's well that ends well, I guess. Not sure what was up, though. Dietary changes? Lack of sleep? Stress? Probably just a one-time thing, but should track this kind of thing if I want to learn anything.

Okay, gotta close up. Still more to do tomorrow, and the clock doesn't wait.

I need a work icon, I think.


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