Reality approaches

Okay, remember that clarity I was going to have the next time I posted? Forget about that. My life over the last two days has largely been a blur of domestic chores as I try to get the house into some sort of stable configuration that I can get a handle on. Which has largely gone well, actually, so that's something. Today's adventures included lawn and garden care, during which I may or may not have gone completely delirious from heat stroke. I spent some time this afternoon after the work was done curled up in a bathtub of cold water, which was nice. I submerged my torso and head as best I could and pretended I was in the womb. The chilling, chilling womb. I am currently wrapping up some more indoor-type chores, and it's basically my goal at this point to waste the rest of the evening (after I've finished up with what I need to do) with the idiot box or video games or something. Tomorrow's my birthday. I hadn't figured I'd get up to anything interesting, frankly...I've got a lot on my mind. It looks like my sister might drop by for a (brief) visit, though, so there's that. And...I guess that's about the shape of things.

I know I said (and thought) that I'd be spending more time online, but so far that hasn't quite materialized as I imagined it would. Some of that I can blame on TV. Part of it, weirdly, is the heat. I'm goddamn hot. All the time. It makes it really hard to think, for some reason...I have trouble digesting information or regurgitating it for posting purposes. Ordinarily I'd skip down to the local library to remedy all that; they have both air conditioning and wireless Internet. I missed them being open today, though, since I was taking care of domestic issues, and they're closed tomorrow, so...we'll see.

You know how a lot of times you'll write a journal entry and you know that there's stuff you wanted to talk about, but you forget what it was and you don't end up talking about it? I kinda feel like that, except it's more like there's stuff I think I should be talking about, but I don't want to, and it doesn't get talked about. Suffice it to say...I'm feeling pretty crappy these days. I'm trying not to let that be my guiding force. I feel like usually I can spend some time in my head trying to pare down my thoughts and feelings and figure some things out for myself, but my usual route to introspection is being blocked by heat, if you can believe that. It's possible that I'll just have to get in the tub to do my thinking. Like Archimedes.

Anyway...probably time to bring this entry to a close. Life continues here pretty much as it has been, save that the lawn is now freshly shorn. Oh, and yesterday there was a very short, but very furious storm that hit my area. Lightning struck somewhere really close to the house, so that was exciting. Also much of the corn in the garden blew down...so that's somewhat less exciting. And...right now as I type, the sky is darkening. The weather people assure me...probably no storms until tomorrow, so...that should be okay.

All, right, seriously...time to go. I'm blogging about the weather. And there isn't any. Hope y'all are chillin'. Peace.