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Feb. 12th, 2019 11:01 pmSo, okay...did not get a lot done today, all told. Slept in a little bit, but it didn't really do me any good. Not like I was any better rested, and I ended up being a little bit late to therapy, so eh. Speaking of that, though, I had therapy. :) It was good. Nice to be back, and it was productive, I felt. The biweekly thing is...fine? It's really just so early in this experiment, but so far so good, I suppose, is the thing to say. I still feel weirdly bad about it, like I'm trying to distance myself from my therapist, but that's also a thing we discussed. So, I dunno. What else can I really say but "so far so good." :) After that, made a quick run to pick up cat treats, which was possibly foolhardy, given the weather, but all's well that ends well. Then...I don't really know what happened; the rest of the day was kind of sunk. I mean, I do know what happened, I guess. Took lunch, distracted by social media, distracted by T being home, took time off to finally finish that second season of The Punisher. Just didn't put my shoulder into it, ya know? I think I knew as soon as I got back home from my errands that I wasn't going to pod edit today. And I got a bit of catchup done, but not nearly enough. So, yeah...not much to show for today, work-wise. Even skipped my chores (accidentally) for the routine being disrupted. So, yeah...rough day for both the dailies and the work.
Tomorrow's plan...well, firstly, includes first day at the gym! We'll see how that goes. It's such an adjustment to make to the morning routine that I hope I remember in the morning when I'm sleepy. :) I mean, if not, no big...I'm sure I'll be able to correct after dropping T off at work, but still. Would be nice if it goes smoothly. I have a DH meeting, and then hopefully (finally) on to TH?! I've pushed it twice now -- originally meant to hit it on Monday and now it won't be until Wednesday. Like...I guess this is an okay week for that to happen? But still...shouldn't be happening. The main issue is i/i. Well...the main issue is i/i and my pathological need to try and finish it before working on other stuff. That's the kind of thing the strict schedule was supposed to address. It doesn't have to be done, numbskull...it will eventually be done if you spend enough time on it, but you gotta spend time on other stuff, too. That's the lesson I'm trying to teach myself. It's slow going. I could do that thing again where I straight up ignore i/i until the work is finished, but I feel like that's equally unhealthy and it's also how I get myself in these situations in the first place, so...that's why I'm trying this other thing. Whatever. It's a process.
ZS storm continues. That's really all I can say about that. It continues, and it sucks. A lot of pain out there.
Health is still good. Not even sure if it's even worth the daily tracking anymore, ya know? Maybe I'm back to somewhat normal? My big fear being, of course, that if I break the habit, I'll forget to log when it's bad. I dunno. I'll think about it. Probably depends on how I react to gym day tomorrow. ;)
Anyway. Really good MM stream tonight. Tim Jones was guesting and they talked about layout, and now I'm a big Tim Jones fan. Even further reason to want to work with Encoded. Not like I needed another reason, really, but...well, it is what it is.
Think that's about it. T is upstairs right now, so I'm getting the blog in a little bit early, but even so...I think I'll still be headed to bed soon. Much to do tomorrow. Of course. :) Onward!
Tomorrow's plan...well, firstly, includes first day at the gym! We'll see how that goes. It's such an adjustment to make to the morning routine that I hope I remember in the morning when I'm sleepy. :) I mean, if not, no big...I'm sure I'll be able to correct after dropping T off at work, but still. Would be nice if it goes smoothly. I have a DH meeting, and then hopefully (finally) on to TH?! I've pushed it twice now -- originally meant to hit it on Monday and now it won't be until Wednesday. Like...I guess this is an okay week for that to happen? But still...shouldn't be happening. The main issue is i/i. Well...the main issue is i/i and my pathological need to try and finish it before working on other stuff. That's the kind of thing the strict schedule was supposed to address. It doesn't have to be done, numbskull...it will eventually be done if you spend enough time on it, but you gotta spend time on other stuff, too. That's the lesson I'm trying to teach myself. It's slow going. I could do that thing again where I straight up ignore i/i until the work is finished, but I feel like that's equally unhealthy and it's also how I get myself in these situations in the first place, so...that's why I'm trying this other thing. Whatever. It's a process.
ZS storm continues. That's really all I can say about that. It continues, and it sucks. A lot of pain out there.
Health is still good. Not even sure if it's even worth the daily tracking anymore, ya know? Maybe I'm back to somewhat normal? My big fear being, of course, that if I break the habit, I'll forget to log when it's bad. I dunno. I'll think about it. Probably depends on how I react to gym day tomorrow. ;)
Anyway. Really good MM stream tonight. Tim Jones was guesting and they talked about layout, and now I'm a big Tim Jones fan. Even further reason to want to work with Encoded. Not like I needed another reason, really, but...well, it is what it is.
Think that's about it. T is upstairs right now, so I'm getting the blog in a little bit early, but even so...I think I'll still be headed to bed soon. Much to do tomorrow. Of course. :) Onward!