Been a while

Holy crap, looks like, what, two weeks without blogging? Blah. Not that I particularly feel like it today, but...gotta get back on that horse somehow. I don't even really know how to summarize the last couple weeks, except to say that I have not exactly been performing at peak efficiency. My disappearance lately has owed a lot to a higher-than-usual frequency of anxiety spells, so there's that. I've also been trying to pour a lot of effort into work trying to get ahead of the curve a bit, or at least be comfortably keeping up. I'm doing...so-so with that for now, I'd say. I'm still hitting deadlines, but just barely. But I'm hitting them, so that's something.

Today feels like the first day in quite a long time where I haven't been just weighed down with anxiety. So there's that, and I'm at least trying to get back on my dailies, get stuff done, etc. I dunno. I don't know exactly what's going on, but I know symptomatically I've been low on spoons, and I know practically I've just not been able to focus enough to get stuff done the way I need to. Everything takes so long, and costs so much effort, and it's not like I'm overloading myself with responsibilities or anything, but it's just been...hard to keep up. I don't really know how else to explain it.

In any case...today was pretty good. Even better than yesterday, actually, and even yesterday wasn't that bad. I mean, I felt like shit, but I got a lot of good work done, at least. And today I got some more good work done and didn't feel like shit, so that's gotta be an improvement, right?

Anyway. I probably gotta give up the last couple weeks as lost to the fog of war or whatever, so...new month, new me, or something like that. Gonna try and check this box off on the dailies (at last!) and try to get back in the habit. Upcoming week holds three significant edits: MM (which for sure has to happen tomorrow), ECB this week, and this new NOF dealie which...still seeing how that goes and I gotta make damn sure I have capacity before I take on a new weekly. Like dang.

Anyway. Recent victories include a wrap on CL yesterday and a wrap on GC today. Chug-chugging along, I guess.

For accountability: this month I really gotta kick job hunt into high gear. I think that's gonna be my main thing; I gotta be able to balance job hunt and pod mining, because if I can't do that, then I sure as hell can't do job and pod mining. So I'm gonna have to start shifting priorities. But this is it. This is the month. ONWARD