Coming back

Today is...Tuesday? Yeah, that's...troubling. Lot of lost time there. And not a lot to show for it, I'm afraid. I have spent much of the last several days just...in the hellzone, really. I think I kept things fairly light over the weekend, but more significantly there was just nothing yesterday, Monday. The original plan was to just come out the gate and try to get like a "regular" work week going, or at leas a work DAY, but...yeah, that didn't happen. Part of it was waking up too early, and even weirder, T was up before I was, even, and was already busy doing stuff. So I just didn't get any good traction, and then there was a naptime in there. I think I spent a good amount of time job hunting, actually, but overall...no work done, I can tell you that. And just...so much stress. So. Much. Stress. Stress and anxiety. I've just been plagued, ya know? I don't think I've been coping as well as I thought. Had a chat about it with T, actually, last night, which I think (hope?) is contributing to me having had a better day today, having gotten some of that off my chest.

So, yeah...today, Tuesday. Actually spent some time in the pod mines...got like half of ECB done. Helped that T went out shopping, I guess, but...it's not like I super capitalized on that time, either, having gone out for a walk and then taken a long-ass break in the afternoon. This is my new thing, though...I'm gonna try taking breaks instead of just...giving up on the day...when I feel overwhelmed. But anyway. Helped with the post-shopping stuff...got some admin done...I dunno. It was an okay day, productivity-wise. Not my best, not by a long shot, but definitely not the sinkhole I've been in for the last...few days? Weeks? Can't even tell anymore.

So. Trying to be more conscientious about getting work done. Also trying to make it a point to get a little walking in, even though it means suiting up for the Outdoors and decontaminating when I get back. I'm hoping today means the beginning of recovery for me. I have just been feeling so crappy lately, and I'm fairly sure it's just...anxiety run amok, ya know? I don't think I'm actually sick, but...we're in the middle of a damn pandemic...what am I supposed to think. Ugh, what a mess. But, yeah...like I said. Felt better today than I have in a long time, so hopefully this is the start of something good. Guess we'll see how tomorrow goes!

MM stream got canceled tonight, so that's a thing. It means I won't be spending the morning editing, though, so there's that. Well...I won't be spending the morning editing MM, anyway. I probably will be spending the morning editing, but it means finishing up ECB instead of getting MM prepped.

Yeah. Guess that's about it. Bed soon. Putting a pretty decent day behind me for once. Hope for the same tomorrow. Peace.



Day 9