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Where does the day go
Jan. 22nd, 2020 10:10 pmI think I fucked myself up a little bit today by trying to do things out of order. Well, actually, two fuck-ups...one by changing up the order, and another by starting the day off with a breakfast let's call leisurely-as-fuck and some TV. I should know better. When I start things off with a break, the rest of the day is just...a slog. Also, though, through no fault of my own, there was also a schedule disruption in the afternoon for some T appointment stuff, and then also an Internet outage. So, yeah...all in all, not the easiest day to get stuff done in.
The thing about the order change-up...I tried once again to put my big work in the first half of the day and the dailies and stuff in the second, instead of the usual other way around. That didn't work out so well today. First, as mentioned, there was the leisurely breakfast. Then some distractions from this recent mess, which I guess I should give name to for blogging purposes? Let's call it Project Flank. So, yeah, some of that happened. Also working against me was that my big work was ill-defined. I tried to combine some admin office junk I've been meaning to do with some cooking I've been meaning to do. We all know how I am with multitasking, though, so...eh. At least I got some cooking done.
So T got out of work early, and then we went appointmenting and did some errands, and actually spent a nice evening together, I thought. Right now she's on an upstairs visit, so I'm trying to at least wrap up my dailies and see what else I can get knocked out. Tomorrow may be another edit-free day just so I can try and get caught back up on this office crap. Today was not a lot of progress in that direction. But, in my own defense (?), it wasn't a lot of progress in any direction.
I haven't done healthwatch in a while. I've been trying to fold at least some light exercise into my daily routine. Mixed results. I think maybe healthwatch may need to involve a mental healthwatch, too, at least for the near future. Today was actually a lot better than the last three days have been. In the last few days, I feel like I've learned a lot of interesting new information about my anxiety triggers, so there's that. I'm also better (I think) at identifying the signs of a shutdown and kinda...I dunno, taking a minute? Though it didn't feel like it in the moment, in retrospect I'm realizing that I stepped away when I needed to and was able to...well, not exactly maintain, but at least deal without completely melting down. I'll take the W; it's been a trying time. Today, though, I felt, like...more or less normal from the get-go, which is pretty amazing, considering. So anyway. Yeah, healthwatch actually seems decent today. I know from therapy that it's important for me to note the good days as well as the bad, so maybe I should be a little more conscientious about that. :)
Anyway. Dailies are nearly done (there's still a couple things percolating that I'm waiting on), but it's and end-of-day post, so that's just as fine a time to put a wrap on the day. Looking forward to bed, but it may not be for a couple hours, yet, which is still later than I'd want. Even so. We do what we can. Onward!
The thing about the order change-up...I tried once again to put my big work in the first half of the day and the dailies and stuff in the second, instead of the usual other way around. That didn't work out so well today. First, as mentioned, there was the leisurely breakfast. Then some distractions from this recent mess, which I guess I should give name to for blogging purposes? Let's call it Project Flank. So, yeah, some of that happened. Also working against me was that my big work was ill-defined. I tried to combine some admin office junk I've been meaning to do with some cooking I've been meaning to do. We all know how I am with multitasking, though, so...eh. At least I got some cooking done.
So T got out of work early, and then we went appointmenting and did some errands, and actually spent a nice evening together, I thought. Right now she's on an upstairs visit, so I'm trying to at least wrap up my dailies and see what else I can get knocked out. Tomorrow may be another edit-free day just so I can try and get caught back up on this office crap. Today was not a lot of progress in that direction. But, in my own defense (?), it wasn't a lot of progress in any direction.
I haven't done healthwatch in a while. I've been trying to fold at least some light exercise into my daily routine. Mixed results. I think maybe healthwatch may need to involve a mental healthwatch, too, at least for the near future. Today was actually a lot better than the last three days have been. In the last few days, I feel like I've learned a lot of interesting new information about my anxiety triggers, so there's that. I'm also better (I think) at identifying the signs of a shutdown and kinda...I dunno, taking a minute? Though it didn't feel like it in the moment, in retrospect I'm realizing that I stepped away when I needed to and was able to...well, not exactly maintain, but at least deal without completely melting down. I'll take the W; it's been a trying time. Today, though, I felt, like...more or less normal from the get-go, which is pretty amazing, considering. So anyway. Yeah, healthwatch actually seems decent today. I know from therapy that it's important for me to note the good days as well as the bad, so maybe I should be a little more conscientious about that. :)
Anyway. Dailies are nearly done (there's still a couple things percolating that I'm waiting on), but it's and end-of-day post, so that's just as fine a time to put a wrap on the day. Looking forward to bed, but it may not be for a couple hours, yet, which is still later than I'd want. Even so. We do what we can. Onward!